Christmas is here and i keep wondering what can i do this year that will make a difference for me.
should i buy me a new dress? new shoes ? or simply stay at home and cook a christmas dinner for the people i love.. Well i may do all of those, but then it will not make so much of a difference than it was for me last year or the year before. Nothing is new!

A few weeks ago, at one of the Advent Christmas i attended( of many numerous i attended this year) i remember the Preacher talking about how one can spend Christmas : and with whom.

"You can spend christmas as you wish, there is no hard and fast rule about it. You can do exactly the same thing that you've done last year, and the year before. But if you've never done it: why not spend Christmas with some body you've never spent with, somebody not from your close inner group"

Christmas to me as a tradition means going to Church, spending time with family and friends , and people from your own community and Church members; never with an outside group or to be more precise: people outside your own Ethnic community.

We look forward to Christmas as a time of Spending time together with family and love ones, singing Christmas hymns and doing all the lovely things that i wasn't able to do throughout the year: a time of holidaying and relaxing not to mention all the awesome gifts and presents to enjoy.
But how often do we care or take the time to remember those that cannot Share this precious moments with their love ones, or the people who never really knew what Christmas actually means.

Will i be able to cross that barrier and forsake the lovely time( i assume) i look forward to? But then there's really no question of contemplation , is it? One has to just take the step and plunge into it. I Dont know why i thought this could be something really difficult? What do i dread so much of something i haven't really known? is it selfishness or apathy: or something borne in my brainwashed mind?